2004…
My husband and I discovered I was pregnant. We were having our first baby….how very exciting! First ultrasound seemed normal but during my second trimester scan…the sonographer displayed telling signs of something not being right.
I waited patiently….anxiously….to be told that the baby had anomalies and the outcome did not look good. In fact, it was shortly after that I was advised to terminate the pregnancy. I was distraught. Feeling very alone but strong in my faith, I declined the pressures that came at me to abort my God-given unborn. I believed with all my heart that things would work out as they should. It was an extremely difficult time….without answers.
August…
I went in for another ultrasound to check morphology….but there was no heartbeat….my little Angel had passed away. I was scheduled for an induced labor the following day as the medics were concerned about sepsis…and my sweet Angel-Lena Tiver was born on 2nd August 2004. She would have been 6 months old. The staff had conscientiously disguised her partly (herniated) head and the disfigured fingers of her hand were apparent as I held her in my arm. To me, she was still gorgeous.
I was so sad I didn’t get the opportunity to enjoy her on this earth but I KNOW she passed away peacefully in her own time, safely in my womb. It wasn’t until a week or so later that we were informed of why she didn’t make it…amniotic band syndrome, which had interfered (fatally) with the development of her brain.
Now…
I certainly don’t want to leave anyone discouraged by this story…for God is good…my husband and I now have 3 beautifully, healthy children…Beau, Anabelle and Duke….and I am blessed once again and expecting this July. However, our very first ‘little Angel’ will always be remembered. She’s ‘Big Sis’ now.
